Snow and cold

Today I walked in ankle deep snow during my meditation. I was unable to sleep after 4:30 a.m. so I slid into my winter coat and stepped outside.
I was physically tight, carrying fearful emotions, walking in the immensely soft snow.

Tonight I am sitting keying and watching loose snow falling outside. It is an evening full of grace.

New snow, bright sun

While walking, a sharpened shadow fell from me.

And all that I saw longed to shatter like a mirror,

fragments of the world falling into a pitch black sea.

Leaving me wondering, where will I next appear?

November 2006

Fuel Tanks

Fuel Tanks
Originally uploaded by da bern.

Deep Cold arrived last night.

Last week I was in an angry state. My mind was focused on "Huge Problems". Anger was in my morning tea and and its potentency lingered, no, raged for days. I have since been a little unbalanced by the information and prognostications. I think my tea may be something to pay attention to.

I've been in this agitated state at other times in my life and while there I imagined myself acting in forceful and dramatic ways. I heard the voices of suicide bombers and artists during some of these visits. I waited and eventually my visa ran out.

Losing shades of grey can be so envigourating that it is hard to see the wrong in it.